Leaving Home

As I reflect on my journey, I’m reminded of the profound changes that unfolded when I decided to leave my condo—a place that once held immense pride as my first home as a single woman. For three years, it was my sanctuary, my haven of independence. But little did I know, a higher calling awaited me.

Around the first anniversary of surrendering my life to God, I felt an inexplicable urge to move, yet the destination remained unknown. I embarked on a quest that took me from Colorado to Palm Springs, from Texas to places far and wide.

On May 3rd, 2023, I accepted an offer on my condo that would put my faith to the test. Despite my yearning to start anew, I couldn’t help but feel a pang of hesitation. Everyone could see the unhappiness etched on my face, except when I was filming my weekly “Dose of Doris” episodes. Seeking advice from the Department of Real Estate and consulting with an attorney, I moved forward with the deal, even as my pride seemed to be stripped away. Little did I know, this was God’s way of guiding me, of knowing what was best for my journey. It was time to be released from the wilderness that had become my life.

For nearly three months, I found myself bouncing between my sister’s house in Colorado and my mother’s home, an unexpected journey that allowed me to confront her narcissistic tendencies and the lifelong scars of childhood abuse. God places us where we need to be and for how long, allowing the healing process to begin. During this time, I embarked on a life-changing trip to LA, believing that this was my chance to fast-track my destiny, to be discovered, and make up for lost time. However, my dreams were met with frustration, confusion, and misery. It was as if I had stepped into a personal hell.

Despite the nagging intuition that told me not to proceed, I kept moving forward, selling everything I owned and driving straight to LA. Upon meeting my new landlord, I sensed a darkness that told me I had made a grave mistake. Three weeks later, I severed my lease, paying a hefty price of $6,400 to regain my freedom.

Returning to my roots, I discovered that God had prepared something far grander for me than I could have ever imagined. My current home has brought me closer to my church, Brave in San Ramon, and it’s leading me toward a new chapter in my life. I sense change on the horizon, and I welcome it with open arms.

Looking back, I can confidently say that I never took my eyes off God or the promise that was etched into my heart. This journey has been a testament to faith, resilience, and the unwavering belief that, in the end, everything falls into place according to a divine plan.

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Style Details
Vtg 1950’s Velvet Gown, similar style on Etsy here
Vtg Rhinestone Earrings, similar here
Foundation CHANEL, Lipstick MAC Cosmetics
Charlotte Tilbury Luxury Eyeshadow Palette here
CND Nail Polish here

Home Décor Details
Laureano 85″ Rolled Arm Chesterfield Sofa, Wayfair
Glass & Metal Rectangular Coffee Table, here
Reclaimed Pine Kitchen Table, similar here
Comforter Set, similar here
Paint color c/o BEHR