The relationship between one’s journey of self-growth and courage tends to evoke feelings of fear, anxiety, and uncertainty, but allowing such emotions to take center stage is moral injustice. I always knew what I wanted to be in my life, as if it was embedded into my genetic makeup, but how and when were the two underlying questions that always plagued me. Sure, the goal for anyone is to be a leader of a community, share your child-like admiration’s, while forming a sense of wealth and personal freedom. The pressing question is: how does anyone ever get there?
I grew up speculating on every action and occurrence that had arrived in life, often with a burning feeling from within that there was more to life than this. Having the courage to always stand out in the crowd with such diversity of the glamorous appearance I graced, to the poetic words I wrote and spoke, a passionate sensation always resided. For me it was hard to live a life anything less than festive, as I found myself breaking away from conformity and forming a life outside of the daily fears. Altering my mindset when setbacks had occurred, I began at the age of 26 to embark on a journey that led me to writing my debut coming-of-age novel, Confessions of a Job Whore, which is now sold on a world-wide publishing platform (here, here & here). It also gave me these strength to fulfill my childhood aspirations of being a published writer and model in a number of premier magazines. But there comes a time in one’s life, they must have the courage to tell their story despite the fears that might originate.
On the evening of October 22, 2014, I was diagnosed as a Type 1 diabetic, a chronic condition that results from the autoimmune destruction of the insulin-producing beta cells in the pancreas. Until now, I didn’t want to share it publicly nor wear it as a sympathy garment; instead I would rather refashion how others perceive such a life-altering disorder. Aside from a select group of family and friends that knew of my health struggles, most of you who viewed each week’s styles just saw a glamorous model who adored the timeless era of the 1940’s. We, as a society, have a tendency of suppressing our fears, as mastering those can be difficult and takes large amounts of will and courage to look in the mirror and say, “I will succeed; I can do this!”
A passionate urge to continue, despite what seems to be a setback, was only a setup for a new journey I’d embrace with a number of mentors. I cannot express enough the importance of obtaining a group of mentors of all ages and industries to assist you when failures arise. In reality we are the master train operators of our universe, laying the tracks down to what we think, desire, and imagine to be true. Everything we are given in life should never be dealt lightly; a sense of gratitude should be given, for that is the only way you achieve the abundance of the universe.
A sincere appreciation goes to:
Kaesrten Cooper of MARGE
Valerie Martinelli, Director of the Center for Economic & Policy Development, INC
Television Personality & Host Francesco Bilotto
Rich Fisher, Professional Photographer & Business Partner
for their valuable support, love and dedication, please accept my appreciation and gratitude.
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